Eulogy

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Karl Heinz Rudolf Homberger

My father Heinz has moved on to the next world but lived in two worlds during his life, Germany and Australia. His own father Richard died a soldier in France, his mother Sofie died in 1991, his sister Ushi in 2006, and his brother Richard died the very same day he did. Now they are together again. While working in a restaurant in Germany during his youth he waited on an Australian embassy official who told him Australia was rebuilding after the war and he could go there for free on a ship if he committed to a year which he did. First they took him to outback Western Australia, after other places he ended up in Melbourne where he met the most beautiful German woman working at the Windsor hotel. He married this woman, Gertrud, and had another turning point in his life in 1957 when they had their first child, Suzanne. The third the abbey, Indeed children would become a feature of his life having 5 children of his own, 13 grandchildren and now 4 great grandchildren.. Indeed he was a good man, death is a fact of life. The average male lives to 82 in Australia today, he made 85, so let’s celebrate his life and not morn him, sure we can feel a tad sad for not being able to meet with him again. My enduring memory of Heinz is that he was a sincere and honest man.

Life

img_1669My father will soon pass away which has prompted me to consider life again. He was a good man. Always a very hard worker and a spiritual man but questioned formal religion in his last days and chose Eckankar. I would say a spiritual man but not academic. After a gradual deterioration over the last 5 years he is in hospital again after stroke. So now to consider human life again. My own musings are that humans exit in multiple dimensions, that’s how science has it, and like length width and height consciousness is a dimension. We exit materially and so can access the 3rd directly. The most significant aspect of the third is time, a very human concept or construct. Our thoughts will always exit and when science invents time travel as it says it soon will we will always exit but perhaps cannot interact with human time travelers as they are traveling in another dimension. I suspect our notions of spirituality are derived from our unaware interaction with this thought dimension. My scientific musings and these interpretations are only my own, you may have some too, the links post directly below includes a few of the important ones to me…

Thought domain
Time
Dimensions
Entanglement
Spirituality

Tao

I went to a Tao, Buddhist and Confucianist group recently which aspired to elevate human consciousness. Apparently there have been Tao people in the past that have demonstrated the way for us to escape reincarnation and better understand reality, the Buddha was one. Indeed the order wasn’t at all steeped in formal religion but suggested that through attentive existence we might better understand reality. They suggested there are several activities and principles for an intelligent human being to adopt in order to achieve our maximum potential and perhaps bring to an end the constant cycle of death and rebirth. I would very much like to understand a method like this for maximizing my experience. Indeed most human beings have basic principles like don’t hurt another person and be as productive as possible. It truly is only another small step forward to realize the ultimate goal of existence for oneself, I think there is meaning in existence. I took Taoism to be merely an attitude through which we can approach life with a few rituals as reminders. They say one should always respect their parents as they were their source. There was also a chant while holding your hands in a certain way to your heart. Probably there is much more, I was only there for an hour but if these things allow me to return to the cosmic consciousness without having to endure another incarnation that would be blissful. I will pursue this to determine if there is a path to the realization of actual meaning in this universe. As I’ve said on this site I believe consciousness (thought) exists in another dimension not that of matter but humans can perceive both. My posts about science all point to that.

Spirit

Science is confident that we will soon be able to time travel. I suspect one of the reasons religion is ubiquitous today is because in the future humans do learn to time travel. I’m not disputing that God exists, perhaps he does in the other dimension where time travel exists. Maybe in the past people have experienced visitations from future humans but couldn’t interact with them in a 3rd dimensional way. We cannot comprehend experiences that are not tangible. Indeed when we learn to time travel there will be no such thing as death. Time might only be a property of the 3rd dimension. I have often heard that time is the next dimension. My insomnia continues, the very next day I think there must be something to do so I continue to write this post. It’s just after 5am and I return to the local MRT coffee shop, lucky it’s open 24 hours. I think it was probably natural for primitive man to sleep 4 hours a time, with the development of our mental abilities and the creation of bedrooms, beds, blankets and employment et al our sleeping patterns changed to the 8 hours it is today. Probably our time traveling descendent’s know this. Indeed bed is warm and comfortable, wish I could return to an 8 hour sleep pattern, probably need a job to do that.

Scientology

scientologuWatching CNN recently there was a program called ‘believer’ which considered L Ron Hubbard’s scientology. What interests me about the religion is the belief in reincarnation and also that we originate from aliens. That and an activity called ‘auditing’, perhaps as significant to scientology as confession to catholics. For Hubbard the purpose of auditing was to show a hypnotized person that their actions were derived from their past, of course, but the suggestion was more subtle than that. In the development of auditing Hubbard realized that people had lived many lives and that this past too influenced their actions. That was the first step. Having said all that I have been disturbed by scientology’s door knocking and street walking advocates. It seemed more like a business trying to expand rather than a religion, I’m not one. The CNN program also showed scientologists who had been excommunicated because of money they received from other followers not being forwarded to the central body. Suspicious. All I can say is good luck to the many people from all walks of life that follow scientology. I wouldn’t be surprised if we originated from another planet though, quite likely I suspect, but then again it all points to humans evolving from monkeys, or another theory from dolphins when the waters receded. But I believe in aliens…

Plato

Plato.jpegThe issues confronting the world today as we move towards a global government are symptomatic of human evolution I think, so interested we are globally in the outcomes of the US election. In the time of Plato his theory of forms suggested that to see wasn’t merely the act of observation but also of knowledge, gnosis, to know. That word represents non material observation. That was our last significant leap forward I believe. It gave us the modern world of thought, education, politics, art… I think human thought is changing again. Perhaps todays populist movements of Brexit and Trump provide a clue, the collective is taking charge. Having said that the United States is going to prevent muslim immigration creating an us versus them mentality, hardly evolution. It’s terrible whats happening in Syria right now. Maybe we’ll have a new understanding of immigration and care for all human beings, for existence and life, when we evolve. I think we live in a very important period in history, so here are my thoughts.

We should move away from the human invention of money, economic value is such an abstraction from reality. We are also destroying our planet and climate change should be our focus. Space and science offer much and can possibly solve the global warming problem too. Space might discover another world we can live on and other intelligent life, actually I suspect we have already interacted with aliens. On Mars we will be able to focus on life itself, there will be no room left for human mundanities. And science might be able to alter particles that cause global warming, remove the carbon from the atoms. Sciences entanglement theory and 3D printing are profound. They say we will soon be able to travel time. Then there is technology, the internet provides us with the ability to share information immediately. Soon Artificial Intelligence (AI) will provide us its precise evaluation, it already does. Indeed there is so much for us to discover in the universe we only need to evolve before we become extinct by our own hand.

Wheel

wheelAnd I thought recently about this blog and that I should say something. The first point then is for other coma victims, my walking very slowly improves through repetition. The second point is that the world is changing quite dramatically, humanity is about to invent another wheel I suspect. The first wheel we invented made us evolve significantly and allowed us to develop civilization, cities, employment, travel, education, etc. I think of the plane as an extension of that wheel, and also the spaceship. I can only guess at what the next wheel might be. The most important invention since the wheel was the computer, perhaps a wheel type invention. Our invention of money is such an abstraction from our understanding of value. I don’t mean economic value, I personally value travel, honesty, love… Money was not a wheel type invention. AI is I think.

I just received the most excellent news, that my wife and I will go to Jonker Walk in Malaysia again this weekend. One of my favourite places in Asia, steeped in the past. Probably another post from there as I become immersed in thought when we are on the road, traveling.

Hobble

img_1261My standard morning at the coffee shop near home, the usual seat. Looking where I normally look I see a hobbling woman struggling along all hunched over, I try to imagine the events of her life, the events that have made her the woman that she is today. I believe there was no event in her life that made her move about as awkwardly as she now does, quite a typical walk for an elderly Singaporean, they so often hobble. After several attempts under the webpage ‘yelp’ on this site I make a new attempt at a story then, a book, I was thinking something more humanistic this time, I’ll get back to aliens soon enough. I imagine…

She is thinking of her 22nd birthday, it is something she frequently recalls. Her husband took her dancing that evening, she never thought she could dance, afterwards it became a habit for them, to dance. Today she struggles to move, something she once did very gracefully, elegantly, while dancing. She was married at 19 to a man she deeply loved, pregnant with the first of their five children at the time of their marriage, she had two children before the birthday she often remembers. Her husband arranged a babysitter for that evening, his mother. That birthday celebration, dancing, was the pinnacle of her life she thought. To dance. She still feels him dancing with her, her husband is still with her despite dying. The religion that she observes is adamant that there is no such thing as death, something she now believes fervently. She always sees her husband and talks with him since his death, it’s as though he still exists. He died of cancer 7 years ago, he physically left her but has remained spiritually.

Just now as I watch her hobbling she drops a newspaper that she was carrying, and kneeling down to pick it up she said thank you to the spirit of her deceased husband, his spirit helped her. A gaunt and very old man. Yesterday she attended her sisters funeral but knows through these experiences that her sister still exists, also because this dead sister told her that she had only gone to the Buddha, gone to the afterlife. Her sister had told her this after she had passed away. Some might think she dreamt of her sister but for this hobbling woman dreams have a reality. In fact for her what she thinks feels real. In an uncommon way her thoughts have taken on a kind of reality, and so when she thinks of her husband he is real to her. When she asks somebody if they heard what her dead husband just said the answer is always no. Many humans experience the dead, there are so many stories of this phenomenon, but we are often too locked into the human perception of this world to perceive the other world, it exists if you close your eyes and feel. She has always perceived this otherness, and loved to dance.

I should just return to my usual subjects of science, space, and entanglement theory… it’s funny where you derive inspiration. The story could describe her life and how she got to think the way that she does, and of course the deterioration of her walking. Let’s call her Agnes…

Update months later, this story has been developed on the page ‘entanglement

Whirling

rumi_verI felt I had to do a new post today because I previously did so many from here shortly after coma, from this place ‘the Whirling Dervish’.  The Arab street area of Singapore is absolutely fantastic as always, to be here and alive is exciting. A man after my own heart was Rumi, a deep thinker and spiritualist. Whenever I think of whirling dervishes I always think of Rumi.

Whirling

dervishWell I’m at my favourite place in Singapore again, the whirling dervish. It’s getting close to that time for me to look for a job again. Just thinking about it gets me excited. Companies like Apple and Google have great ideas, must be the people. Catching the train today everyone was on their devices. With technology and GPS smart phones can now know things about people. Technology is really helping me to resume life, if only this was all in place before my accident.

Togetherness 

lbgtI went yesterday to a LGBT (Lesbian Gay Bi-sexual Transexual) conference called IDAHOBIT (International day against Homophobia Bi-phobia Transphobia) held in Singapore. We humans are so determined to make universal our beliefs, even our feelings of love, I hope we can get past this dogma. The organiser is a good  friend of mine, the issues are fundamental and profound. Why a person can’t love absolutely anybody is deplorable. There was also a film shown and presentations by great people were made. The woman who spoke was excellent, she was transgender, and beautiful. The film ‘Bent’ was shown which seemed to focus on the physicality of existence. In it the Jews in concentration camps were always considering their own death, so too are gays with diseases like AIDS, but most importantly it was an exploration of love and forgiveness. Recent changes were made to Singaporean law that enable people to obtain drugs that can help AIDS victims, previously limited. It is right to help all people despite their beliefs, homosexuals, Jews, democrats, all people. Through medicine, technology, even 3D printing perhaps, we are developing constantly. We may only need thought, not sperm and ovaries, to reproduce in the future, and physical interaction will only be for pleasure, to satisfy our human desires.

Loneliness 

imageA poem I previously liked, still do “A leaf falls, loneliness” Recovery from coma seems interminable. It’s been three years now, sure I’m no longer confined to bed, in a wheelchair or walking frame, but it’s been like it is now for two years and no substantial improvement. They told me in hospital it wouldn’t get better, perhaps I should have stayed in institutional care and given up my hopes of independent life again. They told me it’s not going to improve except through time, they said time was my best friend. So true, my only friend. To walk and remember so appallingly, I just wonder if life will ever improve, is this the new normal for me? To have lived with another normal and now to be offered only this, the brain really is so central to us, we are just like computers in our mechanical functioning, all is lost upon reboot, but even computers remember, it’s all stored as 1’s and 0’s. Perhaps in the future we will synchronize with computers and will live through events such as coma. But human animals can experience hope and we live thoughtful lives, our creation computers cannot write poetry, I live in hope, a leaf falls… — Walking has deteriorated for me, almost couldn’t cross paths I previously traversed daily, getting in people’s way, quite the worst I’ve ever walkedand after three years… it really was incredibly bad. I can see no reason for it, utterly no reason, somebody doesn’t like me upstairs. something I could do before but can’t now.

I can’t even clearly remember the band I previously played in, such important events lost, I hope it comes back one day…

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