Well it’s time to return to the main point for this blog, but I have recovered from coma. We must always think of our walking if that’s the part of the brain effected. From my personal experience these things only improve through determination.
Just to mention again I’ve changed the last post and added an important link to me about the other world. . .
There are several posts here by the title, ‘recovery’, this will be the last. I now have a date for my recovery from coma, my father’s funeral 30/7/2017. It would have been unthinkable during my time in hospital for me to write and delivery a speech to so many people and also to try and answer their obscure questions. My father’s remembrance acknowledged a most excellent life. I think I have posted the very eulogy I delivered, not exactly, I ad-libbed. It was indeed a celebration of a life well lived. To hear other speeches about him also stimulated my memory, I could remember his honesty and sincerity that all spoke of. I thought to include a link where my speech is in the first video . . .
And this link about the other world. . .
Karl Heinz Rudolf Homberger
My father Heinz has moved on to the next world but lived in two worlds during his life, Germany and Australia. His own father Richard died a soldier in France, his mother Sofie died in 1991, his sister Ushi in 2006, and his brother Richard died the very same day he did. Now they are together again. While working in a restaurant in Germany during his youth he waited on an Australian embassy official who told him Australia was rebuilding after the war and he could go there for free on a ship if he committed to a year which he did. First they took him to outback Western Australia, after other places he ended up in Melbourne where he met the most beautiful German woman working at the Windsor hotel. He married this woman, Gertrud, and had another turning point in his life in 1957 when they had their first child, Suzanne. The third the abbey, Indeed children would become a feature of his life having 5 children of his own, 13 grandchildren and now 4 great grandchildren.. Indeed he was a good man, death is a fact of life. The average male lives to 82 in Australia today, he made 85, so let’s celebrate his life and not morn him, sure we can feel a tad sad for not being able to meet with him again. My enduring memory of Heinz is that he was a sincere and honest man.
My father will soon pass away which has prompted me to consider life again. He was a good man. Always a very hard worker and a spiritual man but questioned formal religion in his last days and chose Eckankar. I would say a spiritual man but not academic. After a gradual deterioration over the last 5 years he is in hospital again after stroke. So now to consider human life again. My own musings are that humans exit in multiple dimensions, that’s how science has it, and like length width and height consciousness is a dimension. We exit materially and so can access the 3rd directly. The most significant aspect of the third is time, a very human concept or construct. Our thoughts will always exit and when science invents time travel as it says it soon will we will always exit but perhaps cannot interact with human time travelers as they are traveling in another dimension. I suspect our notions of spirituality are derived from our unaware interaction with this thought dimension. My scientific musings and these interpretations are only my own, you may have some too, the links post directly below includes a few of the important ones to me…
A few science documents on the web that consider consciousness and existence. So I don’t lose them again I thought I should post them on my blog, My memory is quite bad so sometimes I can’t find them…
Dear fellow coma victims, after 5 years and more I think I’m presently turning a corner in my recovery. My walking is improving, slightly better than a 5 year old child, well I’m now five and a half years old. In fact the whole right side of my body improves. For the first time I’m typing with my right hand to test, I wrote most of this yesterday and return to my left for ease of writing. I’ve started leaving my walking stick at home again, only my toes need to normalize for my gait to return, they should stop pointing upwards and effecting my balance. I pick up my coffee with my right hand, I used to spill it when I tried to do that. Also at breakfast for morning cereal I use my right, so many things. I still use the left to brush my teeth but force myself to try with the right like I always did. I’ve said it before and again, we must keep pushing ourselves and try to do things like we always did before coma for the brains new pathways to understand our body. Now I can remember more easily what I did yesterday too, last night we went to a favourite restaurant, it would have been difficult to recall. The best advice I could give to other coma victims is to always push yourself and try, by my experience it takes a very long time for the brain to reroute but it’s best if it does so properly with all the nuances otherwise you’ll have to live with the defects. Oh and travel if you can, only joking but it seems the new environments help, photo in Thailand. As the doctors said time would be my best friend, I also think mindful awareness is.
Last month I returned to my home of birth Melbourne, on Tuesday I went to my actual home, Singapore, not to leave it at that I now return to my spiritual home, Aonang in Thailand. The place I proposed to my wife, we’ve been here many times together. My home of origin – my parents and extended family are from there – is Germany. I’ve been there many times and lived and worked there for a year. I am global these days with the ease of travel despite the global warming effects of flying. As I’ve said many times on this blog Ao Nang is a truly amazing place, the people seem friendlier in Thailand than those in Australia who are always immersed in judgement, eg the boat people and immigration. Australia is a bad place for boat people, I’ve always loved boats all over the world. Globally I found that people of other countries can be less judgemental, there are so many untouchables in India always with a friendly smile on their face. And in Ao Nang the people here seem more aware of life often with an understanding look in their eyes. As is said ‘home is where the heart is’, I’m always home with my wife. Indeed our notions of home are a concept, perhaps a feeling rather than a location.
I thought the only chance for human evolution might be aliens, but today we are changing through the internet and our creation of “distributed open trusted databases”. Physically we have evolved from amoeba to fish to man-apes to humans and intellectually we evolved when Socrates and Plato established human concepts of thought. Their use of the word ‘gnosis’ recognized a perceiver. We have now become dependent on the internet and businesses have been built by it, think Google, Facebook and Uber just to name a few. As with all things corporations are taking over so focussed on money we have become, but the internet still provides an opportunity to evolve. A Google internet search nowadays presents results according to Google’s preferences. The US election is an example, the results for a search on ‘Hilary email’ weren’t by the number of hits but an algorithm, in the time of Trump Facebook has become the source of fake news. I am waiting for a new search engine which, like Steemit, uses a ‘Distributed Open Trusted Database’ which presents search results according to your preferences. Maybe the number of hits or location or accuracy. The result to your search criteria might partly reside on any computer globally, shared resources with no server someone can control. No influence just data, an open way to access information, not determined by companies or interests. Today corporations might be controlling the data, mediating the search in hidden ways. Also there is crypto currency where we may even transcend money, the human interpretation of value. Instead we could focus on life and experience. I think life more valuable than money. Money is such a human abstraction, how much do you earn? rather are you happy? Sure we needed it for incentive to evolve to this point but maybe we can evolve further and go beyond competitive man as I’ve listed below. Indeed through artificial intelligence we have created machines that can think which has become our primary activity, perhaps inter-galactic man next?
Thinking Man – Gnosis
Competitive Man – Money
Intelligent Man – Artificial
So often people in Melbourne challenge my thinking, and again, now on Artificial Intelligence (AI). I was thinking AI is merely the development of Human Intelligence (HI) minus the flaws. AI has access to the sum total of human knowledge recorded digitally and also that information’s precise processing according to human systems, mathematics or medicine come to mind etc. I actually thought AI is the mechanical perfection of HI. The world abounds with sensors nowadays, AI has access to much of our reality, for example the demise of planet Earth because of global warming, in particular Antarctica. AI can accurately predict the time of our end through global warming. AI may even help us repair the damage caused by presenting the facts and possible methods for saving the planet, how to remove the carbon from the molecules. Of course there are many more opportunities for AI to realise. People I know here all agreed, AI was very good at analysing facts and it could possibly develop further by using organic material. But everyone thought AI inferior to HI. Indeed there appears to be something more to individual and unique human perception, emotion. We haven’t yet built a machine that exhibits the HI powers of independent imagination and creativity. To put it another way a machine that can truly love and hate. I tend to think of AI as a superior intellect for dealing with observable facts in the universe but to develop an algorithm that can choose war over peace is programmatically difficult. Indeed AI is an extension of us, we invented it, I think the most dramatic invention since the wheel. Or perhaps the understanding of thought as determined by Plato and Socrates. Maybe we needs another invention for us to become godlike, an old human thought, God…
I always post when traveling for memory, so again I do, I’ve been in Melbourne for a bit now and staying a month to stimulate recollection, it is working a little I think. I can remember recent visits here walking along certain roads, but not really the distant past. I have a new life today, one I’m very pleased with. I actually like Singapore more than Melbourne, one just needs to know where to go to appreciate both cities. There’s more to see and do at home I think, it’s more multicultural in Singapore, and I always thought Melbourne took the cake for multiculturalism. Little Collins near Spring street remains good, the restaurant Barlingha a good place for dinner with friends. Also the Laneway for a drink in the pic very near. And I was told an old favourite had finished, Myers Place but it’s still open, soon to close but at least I got in one last visit.
I went to a Tao, Buddhist and Confucianist group recently which aspired to elevate human consciousness. Apparently there have been Tao people in the past that have demonstrated the way for us to escape reincarnation and better understand reality, the Buddha was one. Indeed the order wasn’t at all steeped in formal religion but suggested that through attentive existence we might better understand reality. They suggested there are several activities and principles for an intelligent human being to adopt in order to achieve our maximum potential and perhaps bring to an end the constant cycle of death and rebirth. I would very much like to understand a method like this for maximizing my experience. Indeed most human beings have basic principles like don’t hurt another person and be as productive as possible. It truly is only another small step forward to realize the ultimate goal of existence for oneself, I think there is meaning in existence. I took Taoism to be merely an attitude through which we can approach life with a few rituals as reminders. They say one should always respect their parents as they were their source. There was also a chant while holding your hands in a certain way to your heart. Probably there is much more, I was only there for an hour but if these things allow me to return to the cosmic consciousness without having to endure another incarnation that would be blissful. I will pursue this to determine if there is a path to the realization of actual meaning in this universe. As I’ve said on this site I believe consciousness (thought) exists in another dimension not that of matter but humans can perceive both. My posts about science all point to that.
Congratulations to the people of France, they didn’t turn their backs on the world in a time of globalization. Indeed the world has been changed through ships, planes and now technology which is making it a smaller place. The EU is a profound thing which prevents the us versus them mentality of nations which has caused many wars. Shame about the English and BREXIT… Soon enough when we start to live on other planets the world will be regarded as one place. La Pen would have been a backward step. Given ISIS today it’s a good thing to care of all human beings in the world, especially those trying to survive by fleeing their homeland. Quite a thing to choose to leave your home for survival.
Dear fellow coma victims, indeed normalisation is a very slow process, I have concluded that the new pathways in the brain must learn everything again. Heel toe the best and most pressing example. At the gym yesterday on the running machine I noticed even for that, it is the correct way for any movement with the legs. I actually am uncertain the new pathway wasn’t used for something else and it’s unnatural for leg operation. I still need a walking stick after more than 5 years but slowly less and less. I wonder at what age as children we develop a complete command of our body parts. At least not all pathways were destroyed by my coma, I’m imagining how bad it could be and probably is for many coma victims. I always wonder about the non physical effects, like empathy or love etc, so many emotions to consider, are these feelings too located in parts of my brain that were damaged by coma? Then again I wonder if they are actually stored in the brain, maybe emotions (person to person) are in the environment by association and we access such feelings from there. Indeed we are learning much more about reality nowadays with the likes of ‘entanglement theory’. I can believe not everything relating to a humans existence is located in the brain. Am I still an ok person? The same or better or worse? Perhaps my experiences through this ordeal have changed my outlook in general, after all a man knows the things in life by experience. Am I equipped to process all experiences after coma? I can’t help to relate all this to computers having worked with them for so many years, have I lost a little RAM? Certainly my hard drive is a little damaged. Much of my data sensors still work, eyes and ears etc, maybe a little worse too. Medicine suggests we can reroute the brain, the organ can adapt to changes, I don’t know how doctors measure this ability. Through trial and error I suspect by the many coma and stroke victims that have gone before. I am no doctor but always try to recover, often consider it and the best approach to all actions. This is merely a record of my attempt and what I think has worked for me. I sometimes look for approaches to recovery online, with anything at my disposal and enquire from doctors whenever I interact with them. It seems the brain hasn’t forgotten it’s disfunction, my ear problems Tinnitus and Meniere’s disease have returned a little among other things I previously had. They were both terrible before coma and I haven’t really had them just a little about 2 years after coma, my hearing and blocked ears bother me now but I’m often addressing it. Maybe the human brain does resemble a computer and I’ve been rebooted loosing my RAM at the time of reboot. Anyway the long and the short of this post is that we must use the brain to evaluate everything we do to rebuild it correctly. Pay attention to all actions, with every step and emotion. By my experience it is only by doing this that we improve towards normality whatever that is, what is truly normal for humans, we have defined it through laws and politics. Maybe we should become like Trump. Just a note a while later, my friend was advised to focus on heel toe after a leg injury, perhaps it’s a detail we all must be aware of, not just coma victims, something the brain must rehearse.
We are traveling a little more, not very far, we came to Jonker Walk, Melaka, Malaysia. As I’ve said many times it’s a fantastic place, one of my favorite destinations to travel nearby home. Seriously, I only use that term for my wife’s benefit as it’s part of her regular vocabulary, whatever, don’t be like that, I’m very busy… Jonker is the old world with Peranakan charm, it feels great. I was at an old favorite haunt opposite the Geographer for a cider. These posts are very useful for memory, I often use this blog to recall, so now I won’t forget our travels as I’ve forgotten before coma. That’s often my excuse I know, but a valid one, it’s easy to forget for everyone I suspect. I’m understanding memory to be a trying thing for all people, not just coma victims…
To provide an update after getting home, I don’t think we’ll go there for a very long time. It took 8 hours to drive home because of traffic jams on the expressway, 6 to get there, and now costs around $150 a night for a decent room. Previously it took 3 hours to drive there including customs and cost $45 for an excellent room. Ah well, such a nice place which has now become overrun by tourists like all my favorite destinations…
Fellow coma victims, today I went to the hospital to have my ears looked at in fear of my brain remembering Menier’s Disease and Tinnitus, and to evaluated my hearing loss. Because my walking is terrible from coma now I wanted to eliminate my ear afflictions from that problem, yes I’ve had problems walking before. I previously knew there was no cure for Menier’s or Tinnitus. The best outcome of coma was to forget both, my biggest problems before accident. I have experienced Menier’s just once since coma about 3 years ago, previously it was regular, tinnitus caused a high pitched squeal in the old days. My hearing loss now was due to wax build up, something I may be able to manage. A good thing about this consultation was my preparation, I wrote what I wanted covered as below. To show the doctors before so I wouldn’t forget. I think I will adopt this approach for all future consultations about anything.
History – Tinnitus, Meniere’s, Coma, Balance which is worse now because of coma, need walking stick
Hearing Loss – Wax build up
Infection – Spreading from ear to jaw and neck. I’ve use ear drops regularly to clean the wax, perhaps that is the cause of infection
Issues – Can’t sleep on right side as my ear hurts to lie on. It sometimes hurts for no reason, maybe 10 times a day, not sharp pain but I’m always aware of the region. Occasionally I get a sharp pain in both ears when I put my little finger in to clean the wax out like I frequently did in the past. I try not to do this in my right as it often hurts but previously I did.
I believe anesthetic and penicillin may have helped last time I visited a doctor a week ago. I’ve noticed slow improvement but am still very aware of my ears. I think the ear water pump helps the most.
Had issues since coma, can’t remember before
Family issue perhaps, mother, sister etc
Gaviscon alleviates the symptoms which are extremely uncomfortable at times